dedicated

happy birthday 大姐! 

you are the awesome-est!

you are the kindest!

you are the most faithful! 

i love you! 

plans

matte top coat

+

"awesome" nail painting skills of mine

why i need my sisters

my protectors

my advisors

my lovers

my friends

my family

we haven't been under one roof for the longest time

and i guess we will never ever do so again

anchor

#photoadayapril : shadow

soft existence

so my assignments are killing me softly. 

hitting a mental block in every single one of them. 

the weather isn't too kind as well. 

pop of colour to brighten up the gloomy days ahead!

obviously i have no skill in doing this.

in need of erjie's help.

i miss how she gladly paint my nails

esp the night before cny.

brilliant to have sisters

strange. 

my brain is thinking way ahead. 

i do things.

and at the back of my head,

i know i'd only be here for a little while more.

i can never figure my brains. 

doesn't matter. 

it's all in His hands

i want to thank you for nothing

mail! 

initial mystery mail

first guess was my sister

(because she recently asked for my address)

but my sis said it was tsehwee who asked for it.

but then. . . i was wrong!

(thou they did have the exact same plan!)

well

it was from my beloved cell group e495!

(thank you for all the love!)

beautiful weave clutch

another mail was in as well. 

yes

snail mail from Elvin!

polaroid of "my" gerber daisy

seriously.

God is too good to me.

all these amazing people that He placed in my life!

i am so so grateful!

not forgetting my awesome family as well. 

the mother has become more tech savvy.

sending me videos of my turtle.

sisters who are mad busy

but always have time to spare

no.

life is never perfect.

but it is beautiful.

i'm especially thankful for this week.

been thinking a lot 

about life as a whole.

and God always brings me the comfort and peace

that is much needed in my life.

i am so lost and confused.

but i do see a light at the end of the tunnel.

i need to press on. . .

update on my hunger pangs. . . 

lunch was decent. 

cooked eggs, ham, veg and tortilla with cheese!

but i failed after dinner.

i started on a mad rampage of snicker bars. 

ate 4 in one go. 

yes. 

i want to shoot myself.

and FSA is still like crap. 

all my ratios are berserk. 

well.

God thank you for everything

thank you for nothing.

requiem

my 24th birthday was a really strange one

i felt not a single shred of excitement

yet i am not sadden by this

what i wanted i couldn't have.

i wanted the singing and cake cutting session with my family

i just don't wish to celebrate my birthday

 with anyone else but my family

16th of March was also the last day of the Epiphany Term.

and it was a long and busy day.

trail to Ustinov

look up and stare

undergrads are gone

library is peaceful once again

my birthday present from

Dew, Romain and Meiko

the first was LOTR VCR wrapped in financial times (prank!)

then it was the book by Oscar Wilde!

(with "The Picture Of Dorian Gray" in it)

hello saturday

hello work

i really need to start churning out work!

becoming like my mother

recently i have been amused by

 my own behaviour/thoughts/speech

i realised i am becoming like my mother

not a bad thing i'd say

i really think my mum is awesome

of course no human being is perfect

but hey. 

everyone could use a role model

and i think my mum is a great woman

(one that is very sensitive to the holy spirit)

damaged

crazy days as usual

Romain being "mad excited" about PWC

tea

at vennel's cafe

japanese cherry with carrot cake

so one day we decided to make lasagna

it was massive! 

mind you it was intended to feed 3

(though it could probably feed 8)

durham cathedral

the one place i see whenever i head out

cereal for breakfast

i love my room

for the view i get is brilliant

moved all my drawings/polaroids to the desk

they don't get much attention when placed beside my bed

二姐 is back in Perth

i never thought my family

would ever be dispersed all over the globe

not that i dislike it

in fact i love it

because it is a time to define myself

by my own choices

it is never easy being alone

but i really do enjoy my solitude

but for now

i am missing home

random thought :

the earliest possible complete family reunion 

would be in 2013

i never wanted to hug my sister so badly

i never wanted to hold my mum's hand

and feel the green protruding veins so badly

i never wanted to call out "PAPU" so badly

i never wanted to kiss my turtle so badly

the show must go on

love lost

happiness

for auld lang syne

i could not end the year without giving thanks.

i do not deny that this was the most foolish year.

a largely wasted year.

and to think i had so much hope and anticipation

for what it had installed for me.

my wrongs are affecting my dreams

altering the course of my life

time to face the problems

and no more escapism mentality i pray

nobody said it was easy. 

but i take great comfort in knowing 

that He is with me.

verse to remind myself. 

i say i love you.

time to mean those words

durham. 

a lovely place that is a huge part of me now.

no more wasting

just pure hard work

and i know i will be truly happy. 

happy new year's eve!

when everything fits

family.

大姐 was mad. (angry/crazy)

proclaiming the macbook air was hers.

and in a strange way it scares me

after years of her calling me "fat one"

i am the fattest of us all right now.

姐夫 as helpful as ever
should never take his help for granted!

二姐 was mad. (pure insane obsession)

i introduced her to makeup

and now her collection is far superior to mine.

moments like these are the ones i miss

mother and father remains the same

spoiling me rotten.

departure

thankful for those who love me so dearly.
this next one year will be a trying one.



with my girls



the awesome-est people alive
<3

precious as it is
i do not yearn to go back

bring me out and up

started the day with a shock

rise and shine


a nice invite to tag along dajie
of coz i wouldn't mind



outfit for the day


but things never go according to plans
got summoned to work instead


at my precious seat
using only eye power


at least dinner was as planned


sandwich and green apple juice
pumpkin bread was a delightful surprise

i never had such joy in reading emails
the anticipation
the moment the word pops at you
i smile silly
praise God!

durham loughborough exeter. . .

brighter than sunshine

just to announce.
i got my iphone 4 white!
<3
i love my awesome parents
they are generous beyond measure

things that strike me most
are usually not directly applicable

time to wise up and heed advice
i do believe in their judgment

looks like i might die while in UK.
and i like it this way

noise that i like

i hereby proclaim that overcrowding has begun.
and i am glad the house is filled again.
with a special addition this time.

it's really a love-hate relationship

i choose love

everyday i'm shuffling.

i like silly moments with her.
so random.
so irked.
but i enjoy it
and i really cant ask for more.

DOWN UNDER!
<3
awesome-ness is ahead.

equilibrium

glad that mummy and daddy
will be back in a few hours time.

and i've got some explaining to do.
please.
go easy on me.

happy eyes

hee!
i love these pictures!
(:


i dont know why
but i smile silly because of them!
:D

i like them because. . .

dajie looks pretty in these pics.
silly but pretty.

mother looked really happy

i just rescued happy eyes
and was enjoying them very much!

picture perfect if i may say so.
<3

the way to there

strange.
every night i get really hungry.
and nothing seems to satisfy
my need of chewing something.

yummy chocolate that erjie bought!
all the way from down under.

i'll make my way there soon!
21st march would be lovely!
<3

company you can't deny

first family dinner of the year!
(dajie and jiefu! we miss you much!)

started the day with koi
i like ice cream milk tea
((:


jap buffet at kuishin-bo!
(i think my monster appetite is coming back!)



with dayi!
she is someone who is awesome beyond words!
(:


then some entertaining pictures.
:D



daddy and erjie played with their food.
:D




done by chong!

isn't it lovely

almost complete

GUESS WHO'S BACK! <3

unleashed

i am finally GMAT free!
(:

second attempt at the GMAT test today.
not exactly ideal thou.
:/
but i got an unofficial score of 590.


okay.
i'll be honest.
i spent more time telling myself to study
and to not freak out than actually studying.


but i'm glad it is all over.
:D
so. . . PRAISE GOD!


i can kiss LSE goodbye.
but that aint stopping me
from applying anyway.

so hello again world
<3

persistent headache.
bummer-

tmr will be a happy day.
afterall it is my choice.


and erjie is coming back in a few days time!
kinda exciting to have another human being
living in the same house/room.

yes
i talk to my turtle.
(maybe a little too much)

note to self :
self. rmb to take pictures
of things that make me smile

[ the way i am ]