make believe is much too fun

i am happy.

woke up early to catch service online.

it was magical.

more polaroids for my wall. 

i am sad.

i ate an insane amount of snickers

for two days straight.

very ashamed.

i want to thank you for nothing

mail! 

initial mystery mail

first guess was my sister

(because she recently asked for my address)

but my sis said it was tsehwee who asked for it.

but then. . . i was wrong!

(thou they did have the exact same plan!)

well

it was from my beloved cell group e495!

(thank you for all the love!)

beautiful weave clutch

another mail was in as well. 

yes

snail mail from Elvin!

polaroid of "my" gerber daisy

seriously.

God is too good to me.

all these amazing people that He placed in my life!

i am so so grateful!

not forgetting my awesome family as well. 

the mother has become more tech savvy.

sending me videos of my turtle.

sisters who are mad busy

but always have time to spare

no.

life is never perfect.

but it is beautiful.

i'm especially thankful for this week.

been thinking a lot 

about life as a whole.

and God always brings me the comfort and peace

that is much needed in my life.

i am so lost and confused.

but i do see a light at the end of the tunnel.

i need to press on. . .

update on my hunger pangs. . . 

lunch was decent. 

cooked eggs, ham, veg and tortilla with cheese!

but i failed after dinner.

i started on a mad rampage of snicker bars. 

ate 4 in one go. 

yes. 

i want to shoot myself.

and FSA is still like crap. 

all my ratios are berserk. 

well.

God thank you for everything

thank you for nothing.

it is time for us to lose our weary minds

eyeshadows

(a cheap treat for myself)

birthday card from e495

so thankful for such a brilliant cell group!

had a lunch date with Li, Huiting and Micol!

50% off at slug and lettuce on mondays! 

and more presents!

well. 

not in the best state of mind. 

been talking to Mr Chew. 

and i know he is not okay.

i don't expect him to be.

but i do wish i could bring about some comfort.

with regards to my work. . .

NO PROGRESS AT ALL

seriously-

i was stuck with dissertation proposal. 

(have no clue on what to do)

then my attention was switched to FSA

when Meiko asked my for my figures on inventory turnover

BUT MY FIGURES ARE NOT RIGHT

AND I CANNOT FIGURE OUT MY COGS FOR THIS

FREAKING DEFENCE COMPANY THAT IS GOING 

THROUGH SOME MAJOR STRUCTURAL CHANGE!

so. 

i have invested much time and effort

but yielded no return.

(i hope my future work experience will not be like this)

one good "thing" this week

(other than the blessing from lovely peeps)

i have been able to control my mad hunger pangs

honestly.

this isn't easy.

i love food a little too much. 

and my body still can't differentiate real hunger for itself

now. 

back to work!