i want to thank you for nothing

mail! 

initial mystery mail

first guess was my sister

(because she recently asked for my address)

but my sis said it was tsehwee who asked for it.

but then. . . i was wrong!

(thou they did have the exact same plan!)

well

it was from my beloved cell group e495!

(thank you for all the love!)

beautiful weave clutch

another mail was in as well. 

yes

snail mail from Elvin!

polaroid of "my" gerber daisy

seriously.

God is too good to me.

all these amazing people that He placed in my life!

i am so so grateful!

not forgetting my awesome family as well. 

the mother has become more tech savvy.

sending me videos of my turtle.

sisters who are mad busy

but always have time to spare

no.

life is never perfect.

but it is beautiful.

i'm especially thankful for this week.

been thinking a lot 

about life as a whole.

and God always brings me the comfort and peace

that is much needed in my life.

i am so lost and confused.

but i do see a light at the end of the tunnel.

i need to press on. . .

update on my hunger pangs. . . 

lunch was decent. 

cooked eggs, ham, veg and tortilla with cheese!

but i failed after dinner.

i started on a mad rampage of snicker bars. 

ate 4 in one go. 

yes. 

i want to shoot myself.

and FSA is still like crap. 

all my ratios are berserk. 

well.

God thank you for everything

thank you for nothing.