frozen ground

hi. 
i am alive. 

in a pretty bad shape. 
physically.
mentally.
spiritually.

but i know all will be fine. 

God is good. 
too good that i abuse His love. 

time flies. 

no matter how many times i feel "time is fleeting"
some how my brain never registers what it really means
as if it were trying to re-live this part over and over again.
in exactly a few days. . . 
my academic journey might come to an official end. 
tragic. . .
i do not wish for it to end. 

i want to do a PhD. 
but there are other things i want as well. 

leaving for home in less than a month. 
time is fleeting. . . 
yet to have spent sufficient time in the UK.

looking forward to my travels with the chinese girls.
till then. . . let me crawl along my road of self discovery. 

and hopefully somewhere along the way i learn to stop abusing God.

plans

i'm coming home! 

was so excited i couldn't fall asleep. 

silly.

but i can never kill the kid in me. 

it isn't that bittersweet afterall. 

hard to be soft, tough to be tender

i need to get it back. 

loving metric's help i'm alive.

yes. 

i am breathing.

but that is about it. 

i need help. 

love for a city

because my time in durham is magical.

step by step

started reading a little today.

i need to do more work. 

but for now. . .

i just want to watch 

"we need to talk about kevin"

i'll take you back again

 recent trip to primark! 

 clouds

 breakfast

lunch 

 bright but cold evenings

 cathedral

 durham's gem

 pink nail which were eww in real life

 laughed hard when i read my own comments for my work

 gift from bestie

 stitched <3

 GARCH EGARCH GJR-GARCH

 stairs in the "holy place"

 sakura?

 lovely pink and green combination

God has a lovely way to cheer me up 

after submission of incomplete assignments

proper food after the million snickers/twix/cereal bars

stronger

blessed is what i am. 


i won't say my life is back on track. 
but the progress i am making is decent. 


so blessed by service with Dr Yonggi Cho. 

FinSAS

FMBF

PM

be kind

now back to work! 

Proverbs 12: 24

" The diligent person will rule,

but the slothful will become a slave. "

applicable - 

walk off the earth

i think i am crazy. 
the most productive thing i have these days 
was reading the word of God. 


what happened to doing my assignments?
i do not know. 


that aside,
i must say i have been very glad to dedicate my life back to God.
been a "christian" for the longest time.
but i will admit i only clinged on because 
i abused His love.


if you love God, you will love His word. 


simple but true. 
so i made myself study His word everyday. 
it is crazy how everything i read makes sense. 


getting my life back on track is a pain.
i am so lazy that i disgust myself.
here the complaining will end.


i want to live
i want to love
i want to be happy


yes, it can be done. 
let the adventures begin!

anchor

#photoadayapril : shadow

soft existence

so my assignments are killing me softly. 

hitting a mental block in every single one of them. 

the weather isn't too kind as well. 

pop of colour to brighten up the gloomy days ahead!

obviously i have no skill in doing this.

in need of erjie's help.

i miss how she gladly paint my nails

esp the night before cny.

brilliant to have sisters

strange. 

my brain is thinking way ahead. 

i do things.

and at the back of my head,

i know i'd only be here for a little while more.

i can never figure my brains. 

doesn't matter. 

it's all in His hands

far away

egg

#photoadayapril : lunch

(this was dinner actually)

baked an apple crumble

Good friday

i miss church real bad.

but right now,

i am so thankful for God's grace. 

working on FinSAS again. 

cointegration drove me nuts. 

fly away from here

5th april : tiny

love hate

i sent my manifesto for the new Hatfield MCR role

"Livers-Out officer" 

VOTE RAISA! 

my work is killing me. 

no, i am not complaining. 

i am glad i have work to do. 

just stating some facts. 

i can't win

"severe weather"

that's what BBC news said. 

i still think the British tend to overreact.

then again,

i don't know if i consider this 

good or bad. 

raining snow

3rd april : mail

surprise postcard from JinLu!

(all the way from Greece!)

seriously.

i meet the nicest people in Durham.

in this context,

"people" 

refers to those that i came into contact with in school.

and strangely, 

they are mostly asians.

sure.

the locals and europeans are mostly polite and friendly.

the other international students 

just stick to those from their own country.

that leaves me,

the lonely singaporean. 

but God has been so good to place 

the sweetest and most sincere people in my life. 

on the way home.

cold

alone

perfect for talking to God.

woke up to a snow-free day.

gramps was fit.

he climbed the slope faster than i did.

and at the end, i was panting.

but he wasn't.

practice practice practice!

library duty! 

black beanie and plaits.

necessary to combat the raging winds.

(heck the fat face)

4th april : someone who makes you happy

fluffy clouds

bright night sky

low hanging moon

ought to stop wasting time.

have you spoken to God today?

always like this

hello april

cheap thrill : washing bedsheets

bizarre weather makes me cranky

i miss the days when i can just wear

tank tops/shorts/slipper

still

i won't complain about what i have now

i do enjoy the cool breeze a lot

flowers blooming outside hatfield college

another thing to be thankful for

beautiful sunrise!

b o r e d 

(from library duties which encompasses studying)

i am a hatfielder

cemetery outside the cathedral.

lovely isn't it?

p l u c k e d

my daily intake makes me happy

Church's vision weekend was awesome.

a year of relationships and discipleship.

so yes. 

i am going to tell my friends

how much a appreciate them.

feeling somewhat on cloud 9.

finally did Perron's test

(with understanding)

on all 3 price index.

liking the results they showed. 

well. 

my assignment is still far from being completed. 

work. noms noms. work.

i care if i grow exceedingly fat. 

but i hate to starve. 

oh. 

why does chocolate taste so good. 

poison and wine

i like the transition into warmer weather.

the people here love the sun so much.

i am pretty sure they will all get skin cancer.

hello double digits (:

sunrise

breakfast

first library duty in Hatfield

Hatfield's crest

sunset

baked/roast chicken wings for lunch

gradient

big bang theory, milk, dinner.

dinner

started working on my assignments.

everything is killing me.

but i will survive.

they remind me of alice in wonderland

while in Hatfield's library.

i must admit my longing for 

Singaporean food is on the rampage

bought these frozen baos for £3.95.

i know they are expensive.

i just pray they taste good. 

well. 

God is good. 

Amen.

i like to roam and stare at my surroundings.

as if my visual senses could capture everything.

or perhaps it was a feeble attempt 

to map as many details as i could.

all in hopes that when i am old and aged,

i can refresh my mind with these moments that i preserved.

life is never easy.

but i am learning to appreciate all that i have.

i do not want to repeat the same mistakes.

i do want to take things for granted.

so praise God for the lovely people 

He has placed in my life.

yes. 

after all is done and fades away. 

the things that matter are the relationships

that we have engraved and shaped throughout our lives.

live long and prosper folks.

there is always a reason to be happy.