frozen ground

hi. 
i am alive. 

in a pretty bad shape. 
physically.
mentally.
spiritually.

but i know all will be fine. 

God is good. 
too good that i abuse His love. 

time flies. 

no matter how many times i feel "time is fleeting"
some how my brain never registers what it really means
as if it were trying to re-live this part over and over again.
in exactly a few days. . . 
my academic journey might come to an official end. 
tragic. . .
i do not wish for it to end. 

i want to do a PhD. 
but there are other things i want as well. 

leaving for home in less than a month. 
time is fleeting. . . 
yet to have spent sufficient time in the UK.

looking forward to my travels with the chinese girls.
till then. . . let me crawl along my road of self discovery. 

and hopefully somewhere along the way i learn to stop abusing God.