confession

hello.

my life is pretty messed up right now.

once again

i have a gazillion thoughts in my mind.

things i want to do.

things i want to pursue.

but right now

i have much more urgent things on hand.

yet i cannot be bothered.

come tomorrow

i will change.

even if i do not feel like it.

but through it all

i am eternally thankful.

i took one step towards you.

but you took a thousand steps towards me.

life is never fair.

You gave too much

yet i took it all. 

selfish. 

yes.

that is what i am.