Saturday, June 09, 2012

reckless abandon

i have lost it. 
i have fallen.


something is wrong. 
my spirit is fighting. 
but my flesh is weak. 


i want to die. 


it overwhelms me.


i no longer want others to hurt
i want all those that i love to be happy.


i want to be truly happy.


but until i learn to love God
and rely on Him entirely
i will never be happy. 


i dont deny that i have suicidal thoughts.
perhaps even a little too often. 
but notice, i am still alive.


better out than in. 

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