information deficiency

i think i'm paranoid

we all want to make informed decisions.
but
no matter how much i ask
no matter how much i pray
no matter how much i seek.


i still cannot be 100% sure.

sticky situation

i know.
what a lack of faith.


call me childish
call me paranoid


i'll admit it is difficult to leave so many things behind.


so for now.
i just want to do things with a smile.


and it is comforting to know that i can do this.
not because of ignorance


instead.
it's the peace of mind
and knowing for sure that it is all in His hands.
(: