i'm still stuck !!

[ handbags and gladrags - stereophonics ]

sighh-
i hate to admit this. . . but i still cant get over elvin. x( why ?! i always come to a point in time when i'm like so sure that i've gotten over him. den suddenly it comes crashing down on me again. the memories are " buggin " me. even on my way home. i'll remember how he used to wake up super duper wuper early just to send me to school.
sighhh-
when will i move on ??

hmmms.
wed was a wild day. (: at least i got to see ting and jul and huiz !! finally we took a daz photo !! (: and i saw all my teachers except mr kamal. x) and i saw elvin. oops- well. ate chicken mee too !! * yummy * oh. i saw choon hua too !! yup- he's the best !! until now i still regret going with kee and not him. lolx. xp

spent some time in westmall's coffeebean.
talked with sue and ting. actually it's more like suelin talking bout glenn and me talking bout elvin. den it dug up so much memories. and it reminded me of the pain. and how much it still hurts now. maybe that is why i just dun like any guy now.

sighh-
i never took kee that seriously. and it seems the same as elvin. it took him a few months ?? i think i'll need a few years. somehow i feel cheated. x( he promised he'll wait. but when i asked him bout this promise he said it doesnt hold true coz things are different.
* bangs head *
i'd never expect him to say something like that.

i came across my opendiary once.
was just reading all the stuff that i wrote in it. and it was sadistic. xp self-mutilation and stuff like that. and to think i was so against it. gesh- i need to get a hold on myself.

well. . .
at least the day ended fine. spent time sitting and talking with ding. (: ate and mac and the next thing i know it's 11pm !! still- i cant get elvin out of my head.


now for today.
was glad to see everyone again. (: and melody's cheerful face. too bad corlissa didnt come to school. x( learning journey was a bore !! didnt really learn much.

oh well-
another day went past with elvin in my mind. he's really skinny now though. x(

some pics taken on wed. . .

jul huiz ting and me = disguised angels x)

me and and bestie. (:

me and ting !! the only who goes bonkers with me in class. willing to do stupid and zany things. constanty talk non-stop. coz headaches for the chinese teacher. and even made her cry. scream at mr wee together. but best of all. . . we both speak english !! (:

[ we might as well be strangers - keane ]