what ever happened ?!

[ music ][ are you gonna be my girl - jet ]

i am so so disturb.

was just glancing through the msn list. and i came across his nick.

man- it was vulgar.

dunno if he really meant it. but still. it kinda ticked me off. the first thing i though was. wad happened. den why would he do this. den this aint like him. den he reminds me of that norman guy. eww- this is not getting any better. x(

hmmm.

why am i so sensitive to all that is happenening to him. guess i've not completely forget bout him. but at least i know he doesnt seem as important anymore.

when i sincerely ask him a question in the status of a friend.

he just seem so cold. or another word would be fake. what is he playing at ?! in the end i went to ask chifatt. his response was so much better. at least it answered my questions. he is making me dislike him. why !! if being vulgar is part of him. den i am so glad we arent together. gosh- this sucks so much.

hmmm.

just wondering if he still reads my blog. but i doubt it. just trying to ammuse myself. think at the back of my mind. i still love him. sucks-

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